I read a quote recently. It said, “Honor the space between no longer and not yet.”
It resonated with me.
Michelle is no longer of this earth. And I miss her greatly. Down to the depths of my core.
And I can’t be with her. Not yet.
But I’m struggling with how to honor the space between Michelle not being here physically with me on earth and basically, when I get to heaven so I can be with her again.
The past almost 13 months have been HARD. I vacillate between periods of feeling almost sick to my stomach about the present and feeling overwhelmed when looking to the future because how do I live without Michelle? I fear what is coming ahead of me.
So this in between phase if you will, I feel like is what I need an answer from God for. What do you want me to do, Lord? How can I serve you? Because I’m going to be completely honest with my readers. My sole purpose is to live my life like Jesus asks of me so that I can get to heaven to spend eternity with Him and Michelle. So I wait. I wait for His answer. And until it becomes blatantly clear, I have blind faith that I’m doing the best I can to do His will.
For now I need alot of faith, hope, and love. But once I’m in heaven with Michelle, my faith and hope will be fulfilled…..and all I will know and experience is glorious and intense love.