Honor the space…..

I read a quote recently. It said, “Honor the space between no longer and not yet.”

It resonated with me.

Michelle is no longer of this earth. And I miss her greatly. Down to the depths of my core.
And I can’t be with her. Not yet.
But I’m struggling with how to honor the space between Michelle not being here physically with me on earth and basically, when I get to heaven so I can be with her again.

The past almost 13 months have been HARD.  I vacillate between periods of feeling almost sick to my stomach about the present and feeling overwhelmed when looking to the future because how do I live without Michelle? I fear what is coming ahead of me.

So this in between phase if you will, I feel like is what I need an answer from God for. What do you want me to do, Lord? How can I serve you? Because I’m going to be completely honest with my readers. My sole purpose is to live my life like Jesus asks of me so that I can get to heaven to spend eternity with Him and Michelle. So I wait. I wait for His answer. And until it becomes blatantly clear, I have blind faith that I’m doing the best I can to do His will.

For now I need alot of faith, hope, and love. But once I’m in heaven with Michelle, my faith and hope will be fulfilled…..and all I will know and experience is glorious and intense love.

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2 thoughts on “Honor the space…..

  1. Patty I was thinking about that quote “Honor the space between no longer and not yet “. The no longer is the tough one. When I lost my son I remember pacing around trying to figure out how to fix this. I don’t want to leave my son and go on with my life. As crazy as it sounds, it took some time to realize that I can’t fix this. The present is all I have. The future doesn’t exist until it becomes the present. I began to understand the present is what God gives us. If I don’t want to leave my son behind I need to hold on to him in the present through my memories and my never ending love for him. This is how I honor him and keep him in my life. The gift of the present I can’t waste it has an expiration date. The best way I can honor my son and try to live the life God wants me to live is to live in the space between no longer and not yet.

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